Yep, I'm weird. Maybe a better word is that I'm a full blown GEEK. I love Harry Potter and that's just scratching the surface. I'm a Trekkie, I like Star Wars, my favorite smell is an old book, my secret dream job is to be a librarian, and my favorite pass time is reading. For me, the greatest high comes from getting an A. The good news is I have friends who accept this. Maybe "accept" isn't the right word..."tolerate" is better. I've spent my life trying to hide this. My closest friends knew that I was a closeted bookworm who was probably going to become a librarian who spent the rest of her life alone with only the company of her books, but I tried really hard to hide this from the rest of the world. I still don't think you have to "act" the part. I LOVE to shop and nothing feels better than turning heads in a very expensive pair of heels. I like to look nice and play "adorable" female every chance I get, but that's for my own amusement. My point is, cliche's are just that: cliches. My best friend is the girliest person I know and she loves books as much as I do. Now the buck stops before all things fantasy with her, but that can be understood, lol. I have decided recently to let my freak flag fly. I'm done toning down my quirkiness. For those of you who know me, yes it was toned downed. Me becoming even more weird is probably shocking to my nearest and dearest, but why not? I'm through with niceties and the appearance I should want to portray. I don't want to be an anorexic, air headed, geek closeted, uninteresting, boring, level minded, bimbo projection as so many others are only so eager to fill. No sir. I'm gonna continue being me: quirky, weird, slightly inappropriate, overly compassionate, hopelessly romantic, fantasy enthralled, straight "A" making, book reading, naively hopeful, and way too loud self that I hope is who who everyone claims to love. Nothing better than self acceptance. Ahhh, cue sigh of relief :)
Besides, there's a man out there for someone like me.
"If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are. Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads."
--Robert Pattinson
P.S. I finally figured out how to enable comments so shared insights are welcome!
ReplyDeleteGirl, it's okay to be weird/different. I'm a total book nerd, I LOVE Harry Potter, broadway musicals, and I work with computers, building website and graphic design every day. Us smart chicks are harder to come by, and when you meet someone they'll totally appreciate that, I know my husband does. He and I can have conversations about just about anything, and he's a complete science and computer nerd. <3 You rock!!
ReplyDeleteYou're right, that's what i need: A fellow geek. Now where do I find him lol
ReplyDeleteWe've had this conversation before....I hate to be "closeted" as I call it and just because you care about school and are into some not so cool things lol jk doesn't mean you have to be labeled. It's dumb....like you said I'm as girly as girly comes, I love pink (the color,clothing line...hell just the word to be honest) sparkles,small dogs, anything sex and the city and search the world over for the highest of heel as possible BUT I can read a single book in a day, English is my favorite subject and I'd cry if I ever got a C. I also can ride a horse better than any man besides my daddy =) and have broken a Marines wrist for touching me one to many times so not all is what it seems!=)Yes you're smart, yes you read, yes you're a Trekkie blah blah blah blah.....but you're also really into fashion, have AWESOME taste in music and the list can go on. Don't let anyone "closet" you. Be who you are and who you want to be. I love you!
ReplyDeleteSee i dated a girl that loved to read and she turned out to be crazy and broke my heart.
ReplyDeleteJess, you know? I wouldn't mind being closeted if it was as fabulous as Carrie Bradshaw's. lol
ReplyDeleteNick, maybe she wasn't reading the right stuff..."Psycho Bitch 101," more commonly known as Cosmopolitan, is NOT a good source for relationship guides. Ten bucks says she was an avid tabloider.
I would starve myself willingly for that closet. OH! A revelation: The Carrie Bradshaw Diet! Loose a million pounds, gain a fabulous wardrobe!
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